CHILL

here's a list of things that makes me feel relaxed..
first of all..life will never be relaxing for me IF i dont have my ipod..sunnies..sunblock..magazines n nice story books..hot chocolate with marsh mallows..jazzy songs to listen to..yeap..

-CHILLING!!..in a pool..(i cant wait to move out!)..that'll be my sunday morning routine..reading magazines..n having a great breakfast..awww...
-Bubble bath!!..lots n lots of bubbles..with a breath taking view in front..(just like my uncle's pent house!!)..with scented candles and nice,relaxing songs n ice lemon tea!!
-PICNIC!..at the park..but NOT malaysian park please....the air is bloody polluted n ergh..i'd die due to heat wave!..haha..yea..reading..n painting!!..yeap..
-BEACH!!..yes yes yes!!...sandy ,clear crystal beach water..argh...can never resist..tanning sunblock on,sunnies,bikini,magazines,lattes,ipod and a massage!..PERFECT!..
-LIVE BAND!..in a lounge..n also...VIEWS needed!!..hot chocolate with marshmallows for supper..with my friends/family..consider it as..my love ones!..great conversations will always spice it up.. very cozy..
-riding a bike on top of a hill early in the morning..when it's drizzling..n the very nice..fresh air early in the morning..
-so in conclusion...i LOVE views..i wanna live right in the middle of new york city..waking up every morning..n having something to do..but before i start doing anything..i'll just have to get myself a latte!..haha..i'm soo dreaming right now..but i'm so gonna work hard ok!n earn MONEY!!..n buy myself..a PENT HOUSE right in the middle of the city withan -ahhh -so-lovely VIEW of the city!!..uh-huh -uh-huh!!..yeah bebeh!..or a house on a hill or something..right in front of the beach!..and get myself a horse!..weee!

just a letter.

Racism Strikes Subang Utama...

ok i dont give a shit what you guys think..of how serious i am towards racism..i'm just fighting for my rights..i get annoyed..it's not jealousy or wtv..u may say i talk as if i think i'm always right..i know i should be a perfectionist before saying all these stuff that makes me sound as if i think i'm the best..but no..i have my weakness too.. wtv crap shit..but this is just my point of view n here's a letter from me to the school..

i'm sittin right here,in this unfinished hall..observing and listening to the speeches gven by the F1 prefects..the choosen ones to be part of the B.O.Ds..i think this school is starting to get more and more racist..racism is kinda obvious now..the fact that chinese will always get a chance in this school now..stealing the spotlight from other race..getting a higher title than the other race..i can prove this to you..try looking at the list of names for the form 1 choosen B.O.Ds...90% of it are chinese..n what happened to the malays?..dont you see it?..the first impression i had on the new afternoon head prefect was...i have to say...pathetic..listening to what he had to say...the way he presented his speech was awful n horrible..he didnt have the confidence to present it..so instead..he wrote it down..i think the qualities that a head prefect should have is..being good in their studies..a straight "A" student..Discipline..speaking well..brave..talented..revolves around the school..helpful n can be trusted n most important..leadership qualities..if u cant lead..then how are you going to direct other prefects?..someone who's spirited,ambitious n brave..who really wants the post..not the ones who are FORCED to..but wtv....we call the prefects of smksu..the green dogs..seriously..the way they do their duties is like shit..they dont do anything to help the school with probelm students..just a bunch of lazy freak asses who think they rule the entire school in that uniform....but we tend to seperate from other races now..why...?i'm not insulting the chinese or anything..because seriously..i RESPECT them..for how discipline and focus they are..how they set their mind..unlike malays who only think about coolness and "lepaking"..but chinese...are damn good..in everythin they do..studies..n performing on stage..but too much of them being perfect and the best?..it's not fair..i want people to be equal these days..u dont get more n i dont get less..i realy wanted to be one of the prefect..but just because of the way i look..the i'm-bitchy-slut look..the others decided to make up stories about me..a very immature way to handle things..soo u see..my advice..dont judge a book by it's cover..i'm not saying i deserve it..but to ruin my chance to be one by just making up FAKE stories about me?..i bloody hate liars..it's something i hate THE MOST..haih..i really wanted to be one of them..to represent the malays n also to prove to people that..i can be one..coz most of them think i'm just a spoiled girl who's only interested to entertain guys..soo yea..i got pissed because of that..i hope people will learn as their life goes on..n also through my blog..i really want people to respect each other..for who we are..no judging on the skin colour ..get to know people first before taking any actions on them..you'll never know what they're like..i've learned a lot about that..dont just look down on people..just because of the way they look ..or u dont know them..i've learned to be friendly n bubbly..but not tooo friendly..but yea..i just had to be a prefect to be a better n a more discipline me..to make ppl depend on me for keeping the schools safety..n to have a responsibility... not just label me as a dumb blonde..but now..i've just sorta like..lose hope in everything..haih..

PEOPLE

i realise that there's people out there who faces life differently..with different point of views and thinking..n some people who would never want to change..i thought it was easy...to make a person change..to be better of course..but it isnt..hmm..people RESPECT you for how deep ur knowledge is..not..how much money u have..so anyway..PEOPLE..confidence is what we need in malaysians thesedays..to straight talk n have open minds.. we're people..how can americans be soo good?..compared to us..we dont really think out of the box..to be unique..we're all humans..we can do it if they can..i think we..malaysians are brilliant...but we're just shy...to SPEAK UP..i've learned that u get nothing if u'r shy...even the biggest oppurtunity...not everyone gets it...n it'll just drift away..soo yea..confidence..KNOW what you want ..set ur mind for it..n u'll be there..u'll get it..it takes time..but start now...ok i'm crapping..i'm just talking to myself right now..writing in my blog to remind me..to think positive..so dont bother reading it..ok..i have a few ambitions..to be an architect..a doctor..(mom's idea..but shit..we should do what we like right?..) urm..fashion designer..(somehow i dont think i will be a sucessful designer) urm..a party organiser..and also a producer..i would like to produce some good tv shows n music videos..for malaysians..well..more american type..because i think our local artist n stuff are soo lousy..(as if i have brilliant ideas..but i think there's a possibility..)n we should be supporting our local tv industries right?!...yup..like i said..think out of the box..oh..i'm still sticking with my old ambition..to own a school..or maybe be a minister of education..yeap..i would like to change the goverment schools..to give a better educationl to the poor people..n change the teaching method in schools..not just STUDY STUDY STUDY..because some students are smarter than their teachers nowadays..but encouraging kids to read..to speak well..to know more about general knowledge too..i always wanted these kind of education..usually..parents have to pay more to get better educational for their kids..but i would like to be fair..for people who couldnt afford..a possibility for their kids to be better too..talented..i wish i could do the same to other countries like indonesia..cambodia..india n soo on..if only i have the power to conquer the world..but if failure occurs..only thing to remember is not to give up on them..